I've dropped out of school.
Good. Now that I've gotten your attention, I'd like to welcome you to my first attempt at blogging. I don't really know what I'm doing here, so it's an adventure that both you and I are taking together. It's like driving at night in a town you're not familiar with. So anyway, buckle up.
As per my click bait above, I *~did not~* drop out of school. Rather, I took a semester off to address some financial obligations. I will not lie, it has proven to be anything but easy, but we are making it through. We, as in me. Speaking of me, still, because we were never NOT talking about me, I've decided that now is the best time to evaluate my life.
You know what makes me happy? Getting what I want. And I don't mean it in the I'm-a-spoiled-brat kind of way... although, that's nice too. I mean that when I have a goal in mind, I do whatever I can to achieve it. Some may call it bravery, I call it perseverance. The hardships I have faced have only empowered me to work harder, and to never give up. It's a reminder that when the going gets tough, the tough will eventually get going... if you put in some work. This is truly what I believe that having the heart of a lion is all about. The courage to go after those dreams and hopes, even when it doesn't look manageable in the slightest.
But of course, with any good thing comes the constant stream of doubt. "Are you sure this is what you want to do?" "Do you have enough money, time, energy, etc.?" "What's gonna happen if this doesn't work out?" "Am I smart enough? Strong enough? Hopeful enough?" Okay, okay. I'd be lying if I told you that I didn't think like this. I'm dubbing this aspect of my life "the witch," because let's face it, like any witch you've seen on television, what good comes from anyone or anything equally wicked? However, just like Ursula, I have power. Power over myself, and the negativity in my life. I can change that constant doubt and worry to something much more positive. It's not going to be easy, no one ever said that, but it makes the end result worth so much more. I just have to actually make the change that I want to see. It's a process. Progress is a process.
Some processes don't always go according to the plan you initially had in mind. Like right now; I'm supposed to be in Ithaca right now starting my junior year, but as the evil gods of Financial Aid would have it, i am not to return until my pending obligations are complete. Fair, I guess. So in the time being, I got a job as a banquet server at a country club 20 minutes away from my house. Nice, right? Good pay, busy job, great hours. It's not easy, but every day is a different adventure, let me tell you. I've only been working there for about three weeks now, and I've already got a handful of stories to tell you. Between the staff and the patrons... we're in for a bumpy ride for the next few months. But hey, the experience will pay off when I move to New York in two years, right? Look out Stardust Diner, I'm coming for ya.
Hey this was a lengthy post, but I wanted it to serve as a "get to know where I'm at in my life right now" kinda thing. So there. You're welcome. Hope I didn't scare anyone away or bore y'all to death.
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